Rocky -- Can't Let Go

by Debbie
(Buffalo NY)

It has been 8 months since we lost him. I try to explain this sorrow I feel to those without pets, but they don't understand. I ache to see him every day. The house is empty without him.

Rocky was an Alaskan Husky, with the most beautiful blue eyes you can imagine. Everyone in the neighborhood loved him. They would say "Hi Rocky" when I would walk him. He just loved everyone. Especially the kids, and my grandchildren. They knew Rocky since the day they came home from the hospital, all their lives.

He was 16 years old when we let him go. His kidneys were failing, and a mass developed in his stomach. I feel so guilty, but the vet said this happens very quickly and you can sometimes never tell. He was 16 and it was his time, but this did not ease my heartache in the least.

I miss his big furry head resting on my lap, and the way he would "talk" to me. Huskys like to "talk," and he always got the last word. We have rescued a dog from the SPCA, but I am having trouble bonding with her. She is a beagle/lab mix, and just the cutest, but she is not my Rocky. I know it will take time, but I wish for Rocky to be here every day!!!

I know he is waiting for us at Rainbow Bridge, and is healthy and happy as he was in his youth. But the grieving continues, sometimes silently. We say good morning to him and goodnight every day. We all miss him so much!!! I will never stop loving him. He will always be my Rocky!!