Candy, You'll Be Missed, My Girl

by Deepika
(India, Jaipur/Australia, Melbourne)

It had been just 5 years and 2 months since we got you. My lovely golden labby girl. You were so naughty. You did not just stay in one place. You loved running after people and scaring kids in the park.

I can't forget your love for soft toys, your squeaky toys, your love for empty plastic bottles, the phone receiver you chewed, the door stoppers and the slippers you used as your boredom breaker. I can't forget how much you loved your biscuits, chew sticks, chicken, fish, cucumber, radish, tomatoes, bananas, mangoes, etc.

I can't believe I lost, you darling. I can't believe it's true. Mumma, Papa, bro and I miss you a lot, sweetheart. All of us did not really know what took your life. Was it the stroke that you felt at the last moment, the black vomit or the sound that came out of your lungs? All I can tell you is we made all attempts to save you. We took you to the vet every day, and did what he said. We tried our best, baby. I wish I could have been with you when you took your last breath.

I don't know if should I be happy that you were relieved from those black vomits, that unending internal pain, and that you rest in peace today. Or should I fight with God about why didn't He cure my girl. Why He had to take you away from me.

I still can't stop tears rolling down my face. Mum is really alone without you, my girl, and everyone misses you. The house is empty and depressing without our sunshine. I can't believe my 5 year and 3 month old little girl has gone. All I can say is that we love you a lot and will miss you for the rest of our lives. We have lost a family member, the youngest kid in the family. No one can ever take your place, sweetheart.

My girl was buried in a park just in front of the house, 4 days ago. Candy, I don't know if you are aware but mum was there when you had glucose drips. She loved and hugged you all the time. Dad was there with you (I know you love him and mum the most) and he completed your last rituals.

I hope you rest in peace, baby. I don't really know if there's life after birth, but if you take rebirth, our wishes and blessings are with you, baby. Have a happy and long life. I don't know where are you now, but mum, papa, bro and I can't take care of you now. You need to be a good girl and take care of yourself.

Muah, my big girl.

We have kept all your toys, winter jackets and your bedding as a memory forever. Canna, I really wish our paths cross again. Your death was a sudden shock and great loss to the family. Come in our life again, sweetheart, so that we can live happily again like before.

I love you, my princess. Take good care of yourself, like mum and dad cared for you. You have been a wonderful kid and you'll always stay in our hearts till we meet again. Love you, my baby. A big hug and a kiss for you. Take care till all of us meet again.

Love,
Your dida.

Deepika